don't go sour

Good evening!

I'm writing this post in a time frame of ten minutes, so I can do something for half an hour then go to bed for my first day back at school tomorrow. Okay, so here it goes. I have this friend, and we've been friends now for about sixteen months. She means seriously so much to me, and she's been one of if not the most trustworthy and honest people i've met and be-friended. Nonetheless. Recently, well, for a while. Me and this friend have been drifting, there's a million reasons behind it, I think not seeing eachother enough is one of them. But, now whenever we're together, which is now becoming a rare occasion, It seems like my friend wants to be a million miles away, somewhere else. To be frank, It makes me feel like shit. Like i'm not good enough anymore and i'm not the hilarious person she always makes me out to be. Last year, this friend cried at school telling me she had friends that moved schools and they drifted and stopped talking to her. But now I find the shoe is on the other foot. I try as much as I can to speak to this person everyday, and ask how they're doing and what they're up to, because I am seriously interested and want to know. Now whenever I even begin a conversation, I'm ignored quickly and two word responses seem to be the only thing I get. I don't think my drifting friend holds me in such regard as she use to. Which I can't blame her for. But it's hurting me, alot. So, friend, you'll instantly know who you are from reading this. I'm sorry, this isn't to spite you, I do care about you very much. But this situation is starting to get to me. It's not like I can ask for more bravado in your personality when you see me, and it's not like I can make you see me more. We've both gone down seperate paths, and I really wish you were travelling down mine. I fear for our friendship because without you, I wouldn't have anyone to put full trust in. I miss you.