luck

after questioning my every thought and motive i sat down and had an amazing talk with someone today that's completely changed my view on life. set things in place, laid down things i need to think about. reminded me i'm an adult. next year instead of going to uni i'm going to take a gap year and work full time. doing that i'll be able to get all this party party and super social ideals out of my head. i'll begin uni level-headed and much more grounded than i ever could starting it this year. i'm excited by this. even more excited knowing i have two and a half months to find a full-time or almost full time job. i can pull off anything when i need to. that will be easy as. god damn i feel content. but i feel moody and gross considering i've written that last self-questioning post. though the post is still accurate of my thoughts and feelings. i see more of a purpose to my life. a path i need to take and a role i have to fulfill. i'm excited.